It’s 1am and I probably should have gone to sleep hours ago.
I don’t really care though. I like staying up late; it makes it seem as if I
have all the time I could ever ask for. The tired feeling behind my eyes will
come soon enough, and I’ll turn off the bright computer screen. My head will
hit the pillow and then I’ll wake up and daylight will shine through my
windows. In the blink of an eye, my time will have gone by faster than a comet
soaring through space.
When I have my freshman year of college starting in 16 days,
it makes me bitter that we must waste so
much time that we’re given in a perfectly useless unconsciousness. We’re not
given an option mind you; we must. We need sleep, or we die. It almost seems as
if God woke up on the wrong side of the bed one morning before he created the universe
and thought about all the ways He could spite the pre-college student desperately
seeking more time. Numero uno on that
list: Cut the time they have left with everyone and everything they know in
half because their bodies require that they drool on a pillow and turn off
their brain for 9 hours.
Of course I realize if God really wanted to spite us He
would have had lots more interesting options than making us sleep. And I am
also aware that God does not want to spite us.
But it leaves me wondering, why on earth did He give us sleep? I guess
it is a type of escape we get to enjoy if things are going wrong. But with my
moving day looming closer and closer, I really just want that time back. But
God knows what He’s about, so I’ll trust Him to give me enough time to do
everything I need to do in the time that I have left, regardless of how much
shut-eye I get.
And now I feel that feeling behind my eyes.
Perhaps one reason God made sleep was to keep my worries at
bay, to give them a rest.
Thanks God for little things.
Sleep well and trust in Him.
Pax,
~Paula(:
P.S. I really do love sleep, don’t get me wrong. I just love
time even more right now.
Countdown until leaving day: 12
Countdown until orientation: 16
